Rebel Impulses

I got my nose pierced yesterday. Something I have always wanted to have- and not going to try to justify reasons why, I just like it. Maybe for the same reason I just like the color green, or why I will only paint my nails certain colors: I just like it. Most likely, it will not stay for long, but it was the point of doing it.

Once, in college... I had my nose pierced. I made the decision right after winter break jr. year, went to the parlor, on my own before recruitment, and just did it. I didn't ask my parents, I just went, and I loved it. Casually, a few weeks later, I brought up the thought to my mom about thinking about getting my nose pierced, and the answer I got was, "If you get your nose pierced, you can pay for college on your own" After that comment I freaked out. They were coming to visit a few weeks later, so, the decision was made, I loved college more than the nose piercing, took it out, and no harm no foul. My parents never needed to know.

Until I told them a few years later. Got a good laugh about how much pressure I have always put on myself, and for the most part, have been an easy kid.

Yesterday afternoon, I made the decision that I wanted it again, and you know what, I went, did it, and don't regret it for a second. Here's why:

1) I proved to myself I could do it. I am in control of myself, and if there is something I want, no one, and nothing can stop me
2) Finally, I did something that not everyone agreed with, and I don't care what they think
3) And last but not least, I did this for me. Maybe to feel a little but of pain, or to feel a little alive. But this year, for the most part, has been hard from a personal standpoint. At some point, we all have to be selfish, do something for ourselves, no matter what that is (within constrain of physical harm, of course)- and not think, just do.

And thats what I did. My parents hate it, disagree with it, whatever. T supports it, people at work are mixed. But overall, I did it, I support myself- and what other people think... honestly, don't care. 

Peace, Love, and the little rebel inside all of us,
B