Dates...

Being in this big city and not really knowing anyone my age willing to show me around the city has been hard. But let me tell you, this boy that took me on date #1 this past Tuesday has shown me more of New York than I would have ever seen. He took me to Brooklyn park to see the skyline, Coney Island to the board walk and to Nathans hot dogs, to the worlds fair and tennis center for the us open. All these places would have gone undiscovered without the help of good old Borris...

But there is one little issue with my new friend- an issue that I would have loved to have in college. He actually likes me. He wants to spend time with me. Finally, I have what I wanted for 4 years in college, and now, 4 months later, I have it and don't want it! Who am I? The boy wants to hang out all the time- he wants to pay for me, take me on dates, show me really cool things- not because he has to, but because he wants to. I couldn't beg a boy in college to do these things for me. The reason dating is so simple right now, I think is because there are no outside opinions. No friends judging or throwing in their two cents. Nobody is getting in the way.

The issue, you ask... Well, the issue is, as great as he is.... I moved to this city to find me, to try new things, not to be tied down, to be able to do whatever I want, when I want. I came here to be 100% selfish, to peruse my goals and aspirations (which so far have been successful). By in large, I came here to live my life. There is room in my world for Borris, and it doesn't cross the lets be friends line. Unfortunately, once those ground rules are laid down, there is no going back. The dates will be done for good...Its a puzzle to figure out, one that I have never played before.

A good family friend told me once, that in relationships and dating, the women hold all the cards, no matter what. Until now, I had no idea what she was saying; where were these cards, and where could I get them, because clearly I couldn't find my deck. Well, I have found the deck, the issue now is how to hold my cards right- not lead him on but not make him hate me... a very weird line that I am playing around.

For now, I figure, my job will start soon (YESSSS!) and he is going back to school next week, so yet again, Time holds all secretes, so things will just fade away naturally and I will be let off the hook (fingers crossed).

Lesson Learned:

Be friends with those who know the city, not just the central city, but everything around it. There is no better way to learn the culture than with someone who's a native (and if they like you is always a bonus)

Peace, Love and Never Ending Dates,

B