The day is coming, SO CLOSE! In my few remaining days of being 23- the real last year of my "early" 20's, I cant help but wonder.... who the hell am I and where do my outrageous ideas for life come from?
When I was little, it was easy to be so bold and push the limits- because then people would just say, 'oh you have so much to learn, your young' but now... I still am bold and push the limits and this quality does not seem to be liked int he corporate day to day business. Its seen as 'too out there' and 'out of my place' and 'not your problem.'
Maybe I am not meant to be in the corporate world. I think eventually, I need to be in a space where I can act as my own boss. I work well in teams, but I do not work well when I cannot let my personality and 'out there-ness" shine. It feels like I am a bubble waiting to burst.
Yes, I would be that girl to be friends with clients and build a personal relationship (just like the little kid who use to make friends with their teachers- totally was me).... I am laid back, personable, and have ideas. Where can I use these attributes, that make me, me?
Lesson learning, and always learning: My brain never stops changing and thinking- but one things for sure- I want to always be outrageous, and I always want to be me- good, bad and different. Every day its different, and today, I am out there, needing more. Needing more for my 365 days to a 'mature' 25.
Peace, love and thinking,
B
p.s- T and I are going on an adventure Friday (yes, my actual birthday)- we're renting a car and driving to Maine... don't really have a plan other than camping on a beach on Saturday night. Looking to be a modern day Louis and Clark. Get away from the world for a few days and discover a new one. I'll tell you all about it... I can't wait!!!
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