Break Downs

So. I had a break down this morning. Total over reaction. About what, I have no idea.

But when I say break down, I mean sitting in my apartment, alone, crying for no reason. Maybe its the overwhelming feeling of change, alot of change in a short period of time. Or maybe its my hormones, but most likely, its both.

But I just sat there this morning, on skype with T (because of course, he is out of town for work)- crying, at 8AM. Gotta love the roller coaster of emotions. I will say, after crying my eyes out for about 20 minutes, I did feel a whole lot better- but what does that solve? Nothing. There was nothing wrong, but maybe just the release of the tears, release of emotions. Sometimes I feel like my tears are everything I want to say, but cannot put into words, they come out all at once, and then I close right back up, building up the tears until the next explosion.

I need to start working on expressing myself more, and releasing my true emotions- something i have tried to work on in the past but always seem to fail.

Lesson for the day: I just have to cry,. and I dont care if it seems weak. Big girls cry too.

peace, love and finding some dark chocolate to soothe myself,
B