Wonderland

So I got a framed picture and on it there is an arrow pointing into the distance and written in black ink on the arrow is "To Wonderland." I have been thinking of where to hang it- above my bed, near my closet, or anywhere. It has been sitting next to my door for about a week now- hasn't moved an inch, clearly because I have done nothing with it. I just haven't had the time to actually hang it. So there it sits, waiting to be placed.

My picture is kind of in a limbo land- waiting until I am ready to move it. For some reason, everything I do at the moment is in a weird limbo land also. My weekends are planned around visits with my boyfriend (who is done with school in December and fingers crossed and every luck charm, will have a job in Atlanta)- all I want is for him to be here- I miss this summer, when he was available to me all the time- we could get lunch during the week, cook dinner at night and go do fun things. He was here for the most amazing almost 4 months, and then he was just gone. I forgot how hard long distance was the second he arrived back in April- and now I remember how hard it was- and its even harder. And its one of those things that no one else can make better or fix. No matter how late I stay at work, how many hours I spend at the gym or go out trying to avoid missing him- that itch in my stomach to hang out with him and see him every day does not go away. We are a team- and flying without my partner in crime all the time is really hard.

So right now, him and I are in the limbo land- just waiting for graduation, trying everything possible to make the weeks go by faster. We are almost there- only about a month left, he has been gone since September, but for some reason- once November 1st rolled around- everything really sunk in that he was not living here anymore. There are no other words to describe it other than it just plain sucks.

So- for now, yea I am living in limbo- just like my picture. Maybe one of these days the picture will find its place on my wall and point to which ever direction "Wonderland" is. Maybe when my picture finds its place, I'll find mt wonderland. Maybe I will just leave my picture there until my boyfriend finally moves here- and he can help me hang it. Someone has to find there place- so my picture and I might as well find it together.

Maybe its the weather (its nasty outside) or the fact that it got dark outside before I left work- or I just miss my partner in crime right now a lot- just in a really weird funk. Hopefully nothing that a gym session cant fix.

peace, love and Gym Therapy-

b