long distances.

Now that I am really moving into an apartment- lease signed for a year- I am realizing that my friendships I made in college, for the most part, are all going to be long distance. Like in real relationships, friendships need to be worked at. When we all graduated, I never thought in a million years that I would go a few months without talking to some of my closest friends. I never though that friendships needed to be nurtured- like any relationship. With no clear end to the distance between me and my friends- its hard to define the new friendship. The hardest part is the frustration that we can never go back to the way things were- its a part of life- progression- but the changing of friends (who are all amazing people and amazing friends)- just in all honesty, sucks.

The friends I had in college- best friends and semi friends- are the best people I have ever met and while living in Bloomington, we all were entangled in each others lives: from school, boys to clothes. We all shared everything- the drama and laughs. But now- without that web of life, every day interactions- or even weekly dinners, the bonds we all had on a day to day basis have loosened a little bit. There is a gap between the dream life of college and real life of what ever city we all live in. For me, most of my friends are all up in Chicago. By choice, I do not live there (I am so over the cold... thats the only reason)- but how am I suppose to keep up with their lives when they are all together and I am apart? Visa versa is the same- my stories do not quite make sense, because they don't know any of my new friends or the new places I am going.

The hardest part of it all is knowing, most likely, we will all never be living the same lives again. But whats even harder is finding how to make the friendships last. One thing I do know- they are friendships worth keeping, and figuring out how to evolve the friendships is worth it.

I just feel like a big theme of my life at the moment is long distance- long distance friends and long distance boyfriend. The long distance will end soon, and hopefully just be considered a plane ride- just a distance, get rid of the 'long' part. Find a way to feel closer, even with the distance.

Lesson learning:

all relationships are work.

peace, love, and procrastinating on packing,

B