Tis the season...

I saw a sign at my gym yesterday that said, "tis the season to get chubby, fa la la la la, la la la la..." and this sign does not lie. People have been bringing in home made goods to the office every day straight since Halloween. Although my gym regiment has stayed the same, my eating habits have clearly taken a turn for the worse. I am not suggesting that I go on a New Year's resolution to diet- rather, I am going on a New Years resolution to have self control from the yummy goodies my office puts out.

But that is not the point of this post. The reason I have been so absent is because I had a very exciting weekend. I had a boy visitor come this weekend who I have grown quite fond of. This is not a boy from New York, nor a new boy to my life- just someone who has come back into my life since homecoming and really impacted me for the better and has opened up my eyes.

To give you a little background, I brought him to my sorority formal this past spring- we did not really know each other that well, but bringing him rounded out our group and him and I happened to really hit it off. To end my formal experience- he did a good job at making it memorable and the best one out of them all.

We had quite a thing going on at the end of the school year- not sure what kind of label to put on it, but we were having a blast. He took me rock climbing- the perfect date to take me on....and then graduation came. Some little mishaps here and there and eventually stopped talking. Life in separate places kind of got in the way and being away from each other for so long with no clear path in the future made things hard. But once we saw each other at homecoming and had a little chat about life... it was like we never left.

Ever since homecoming, we have spoke every day and the he came to visit. While he was here, I can honestly say that I was truly happy. We went to Friday night dinner with the little crew my friends and I have put together, went to see Wicked on Saturday night followed by the bar scene with some friends, wandered around 5th avenue and had the best sushi ever Sunday night. Then Monday came and he left. But the rest of the time when there was no real activity, we walked around, talked, joked and just enjoyed each others company. He makes me laugh and does not care that I am a little weird and goofy- which is nice.

Typically, I have been the kind of girl to not open my self up- really not let me self seem vulnerable, because if I stayed closed, there was no room for getting hurt. There has been a shield up my entire life. But right now, at this junction of my life, that armor is slowly coming down and to be honest, I am scared shitless and so happy all at the same time. Who knows where this little adventure will go, but I can tell you this, its going to be another interesting ride....

Here is my real New Years resolution: even when time get tight, I will write more. I swear.

Peace, Love and putting the armor away... slowly,

B