Mentors and drinking more

After graduation, I was determined to find a mentor . Someone a few years older than me who could give me advice. Someone that I could go to, no matter what, and really be listened to and then in return, be given wisdom and knowledge from past experiences. This person would be able to relate to me on some level, and be someone who I strive to be. I was looking for someone to model myself after- to have a path and know that everything was going to be alright.

I have been trying so hard the past 19 months to find this person- and the mentor I have finally found has taught me that I cannot find someone to follow, rather, find someone to help me lead. Model myself after actions, not after a person. Because in this life- there is no one like me. I am the only one, so no reason to waste my life trying to be like someone else. Take tidbits instead from people who came before me and then use those lessons to succeed.

I searched in New York to find my mentor, only to come up with great friends, but no true mentor. I moved back to Atlanta, trying to cling onto people who had helped me with advice in the past to only realize I was being looked at as I once was- as the college girl ready to party, with no real expierance in life nor a worry in the world. Thats the issue I have found whit returning to my past, I am still looked at as the person I was before graduation- 19 months ago, as the new girl who was still learning. But now, 19 months after, I am a real girl now, ready to take on the world. With a slightly different view, but the same attitude.

Who I needed is someone who did not know my before. Someone fresh in my life, with no pre conceived notions, who only knows how hard I try now, and sees the potential that I have in me now. I have been lucky enough to find someone to confide in. And even though I am sure some of the advice and words given to me have been told to me before, but when they come this mentor, they sound differently and are backed with trust and confidence.

Words from this mentor recently has shaped my thinking in a way that I did not know possible. I have been pushed to do more, be greater and strive to run to the top.

I am sure that I will have many mentors in my life, no matter where I go or what I do- But I have now learned something very important:

A mentor will come into my life when I need them most, even if its not to dispense advice, a mentor is there for support and belief. And everyone needs someone to believe in them.

Also something very important I learned this week- work less, drink more. Apparently, I have been working too hard and taking things too seriously- so its time to loosen back up.

Peace, love and drinking with my mentor,

B

Global Warming...

A year ago this weekend was the huge ice storm that paralyzed the South.... people were stuck at home for a week straight with no way of driving because the roads were iced over. Today... a year later, I just got back from a walk in shorts and a sweat shirt, and was a little on the toasty side. The question, which is normal for the middle of January in Atlanta. Growing up, I expected it to be chilly with a high in the 40's or low 50's, but nothing like this, and clearly nothing like what it was last year.

What if the world is trying to tell us something, we need to take better care of her, or she is just going to keep playing tricks on us. Because of my boyfriend, I have started recycling and being more conservative about using plastics and products that are not good for the environment. But what else can be done? Public transportation needs to get better, and maybe, we all need to get outside more and enjoy everything the earth has to offer.... because according to the Mayans, the world is ending in less than a year. So gotta enjoy the year while it lasts.

Peace, love and going back outside,

b

I Miss Indiana

Every once in a while, I will miss it- I will miss my friends, miss the campus, miss my house, miss my city- I just miss Bloomington, Indiana.

I miss everything being available to me all the time....all my friends, if I didn't feel like hanging out with one group of friends, I could just change.

I think the thing I miss most about Bloomington, Indiana- is the steady unchange. Things don't change in a college town. Every year, new students come in, and although the faces change, the people dont.... thats what I miss the most. Bloomington, Indiana is predictable, safe, and will never let me down.

It's a little comforting to know that a group of friends and I could go to bloomington on our own, on a slow weekend, and have a great time- know what bars to go to and what drinks to order. What sushi place is the best and the cheapest, and where we can go for bar food. We know what running trail to take and how long it is. We would know what time things open and what time they close, we would know what route to take and how to avoid traffic hour, it would all come back naturally, like we never left.

I guess that is where Bloomington, Indiana should stay, as an unchanging memory... an unchanging memory that can be brought back to life every year or so- for one weekend...

Peace, love and the magical unchanging town,

B